Fandom Category: Buffy The Vampire Slayer/Angel
Pairing: Buffy Summers/Spike
Fic Title: Distance
Rating/Warning(s): Mature for aganst and sexual situations
Genre: Romance, Hurt/Comfort, Angst
Why this must read: the story is long and extremely well-developed. The authertakes her time to espress in chilling, sometimes unpleasant detail Buffy's emotional state in her new role of 'global Slayers' leader', her being wrapped in layers and layers of denial where her feelings and past relationship with Spike are concerned. She starts by being convinced that she doesn't care all that much about neither of his 'deaths', yet when Faith lets her to know that an amnesiac, psychotic Spike was found in LA, she flies from Europe in a hurry to 'fix 'him. Although Spike doesn't remember her or anything of his past, he still responds to her, and so Buffy stays at his side, trying to handle both her distress of facing this 'William' who is so much like Spike whilet knowing nothing of their complicated history, and his distress in dealing with his complete amnesia.
This unexpected blank slate and their proximity ultimately allow Buffy to know Spike in ways she never quite dared in past, and as every layer off denial slowly falls away, she finds herself helpless against feelings she has not experienced since Angel first lost her soul. And although she is happy like never before, Buffy begins to be terrified that Spike will hate her once he remembers everything she hid from him, thinking she is only using him and demeaning him once more.
Once i started reading this fic, i litterally coul not stop until I had finished - I love how much Buffy grows here, how she learns to love with all of her heart even if it means setting herself up for a fall. I love even more the role reversal industriously orchestrated throughout the plot- everything Spike offered to a recalcitant Buffy in season 5,6 and 7, Buffy offers back to him during this story, always fearing that he will someday spurn her as she spurned him. It's simply a gorgeous, intense, perfect epilogue to both the series.